i just want to start out by saying.. i love my friends. And i want to say sorry to everyone, Shea in praticular, cuz I've been acting really bitchy latley. It's not you guys, at all, its more like family life and being so stressed out and what-not. The usual type of thing. And I'm sorry if I snapped at you on Monday, i've grown to be more independant since i'm always by myself all the time and i dont like it when people see me upset, and when they do I dont want them to pity me. I really couldn't stand it when everyone kept asking me if I was okay or what was wrong constantly throughout the day. When i tell you once i dont want to have to tell you again. I tried getting my mind off things and tried to cheer up, but once I did someone would come along and remind me of it. It wasn't my day. It hasnt been my week, more likley. Shea, you know i love you, and im sorry. I just felt like we were falling apart, and by trying to regain our friendship i made things worse, typical of me, right? I love you guys, each and every one of you, and never forget that!
today we had to go down to mass to visit family and what-not. NOT my idea of a fun time. Typical me playing video games w/ my bros staying away from everyone kind of day. And thats exactly what i did. I really don't like a lot of my family, and i try to stay as far away from them as possiable. Its hard when the closest person to your age there is your 20 year old brother. Food wasn't all that great.. i hate turkey day:(
so i pretty much have no plans going on for the rest of the week. Might be hanging out with Jackie 2morrow night if her family isnt coming up. We'll see how that goes. I need to go X-mas shopping.. who wants to take me?
well thats pretty much it.. oh and Dan do you have my money from dinner the other night? ;)
im gonna go eat now since i didnt eat much today. xox :-*