omg.. this is the WORST day of my entire life. I have the oppritunity to meet Howie Day, everyone who knows me knows im upsessed with this guy, but i can't. It's in Portland, and hour away, heaven forbid. My parents are way too over protected cuz im the only girl of the family and it drives me crazy. I got my hopes up, yet my dreams are thrown to pieces right before im supposed to go. I cried this morning cuz my dad was being an asshole about it and i was in the worst mood all day. I snapped at everyone this morning, i really didnt want to talk about it and it really bugged me when everyon kept asking me all day if i was okay or what was wrong when i wasnt okay and i didnt want to talk about what was wrong. I wanted to be left alone, yet no one would let me be. Ally pulled me aside this morning amist my crying and talked to me about it. That kind of make me feel better, shes a sweatheart. I really wanted to go, i love Howie like no one believes, so i was like fuck it im going anyway. Just kidding.... Bri had to get work off and she wasnt sure if she was gonna be able to and Tod had her mom's car cuz his was in the shop or something. So there goes our means of transportation. And along with it go my hopes and dreams. No body understands how much meeting him would have meant to me, and now I may never have the chance again. Yah, ill be able to go see him in concert or whatever, but actually meeting him is such a big difference. I love this boy..


so i have a dr.s aptmt.. and im gonna come home and listen to my CDs for the rest of the night.. thats as close as I can get to actually being there. At 6:00, when Howie's supposed to start up in Portland, will some one come do me a favor and shoot me in the head? I don't want to have to walk into school 2morrow.. broken. Yah, maybe you think im over reacting, but im not. you could even begin to understand.