This morning, on other hand, was horriable. I've come to the conculusion that i don't know any of my friends, not even Bri. People dont tell me things anymore and my closest friends dont even talk to me anymore. I dont what it is, i know people change as they get older and everything, but usually close friends talk about stuff, and i get the raw end of the deal. I don't see how thats fair at all. I feel invisible around people most of the time, which is a big change since everyone used to notice me and talk to me and everything else. I know i've become a lot more independent, but that doesnt mean i dont want to talk to my friends. I'm growing apart for everyone and that upsets me. me and bri dont really talk about stuff anymore like we used to, but we have fun together. Jaye is probably the only person that understands me. Its hard when you go to having so many friends, to not having many at all. Its a lot to deal with. me and shea have drifted apart, i dont really talk to Jackie much anymore and i wish i did, bri's busy with work and everything and i can't blame her, and the only time i talk to krista or anyone is at school. its complete bullshit. If you don't want to be my friend, tell me, dont talk about me behind my back or pretend to be cuz that only makes matters worse.
well im crying now.. yup good way to start my day.