Thursday, December 04, 2003
last night.. good night. today.. overall good day. tonight.. looking promising.
finally got everything squared away thats been going on, minus whose posting on message boards pretending to me. I'll solve it. I feel like Sherlock Holms.
today was a pretty good day.. gave bobby a pic of tommy for the tommy gill fansite. It was a good one, let me tell you. History was the only downside to the whole day. I hate Mrs. Newton was a passion, emphasis on the hate. We usually have to do current events every Friday, but we havent done them since the end of october or the first week in november cuz we've had a research paper due. We'll, we got progress reports today and we have an event on there that we never did and everyone just has random grades. It's bullshit. I'm getting a 90 but still, its the fact that we never did it. Me and Jaye up here ___
Jon.. down here ___
haha.. but the rest of the day has been good. Tommy's gonna kill me cuz i gave Bobby a picture of him for the website. Its just fun and games, lighten up. :-P its all for the laughs
well thats pretty much all. gonna go eat cuz im starving. Dan.. next time I come over ill be looking for that quesadea or however the hell you spell it:-P
Mood: Happy:-D
Music: O.A.R. - Risen
Posted at 3:23:00 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
im gonna write you a letter im gonna write you a book i wanna see your reaction i wanna see how it looks
let's start this thing off with the events that occured last night.. I'm not going to get into it cuz those of you who matter already know what its about. I, personally, am not the least bit upset. I think its funny, actually. Funny that he even tried. You can't get things like that past me, for future reference. I'm not as dumb as you may think I am.
so last night was a good night, cleared things up, had a few good laughs, ect ect. Today was a pretty good day in all. gave some dirty looks, laughed at some people, you know how it is;)
so Friday me and Kelley are gonna go shopping for christmas:) I'm prolly not gonna buy anything, mainly cuz i wanna save my money for other things, i.e. Howie n Guster:) I need to buy my friends things, yah, but i still have a couple weeks to do so. It'll get done.. i swear.
so yah.. i need plans for this weekend. You know you wanna hang out with me;) haha.. lemme know
Mood: Amused:-D
Music: Josh Kelley - follow you
Posted at 3:55:12 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Rochester is, by far, the stupidest town in New Hampshire. While every other school in the area has two hour delays, we only have one and most of the roads haden't even been plowed by then. Way to go Rochester! Because of this I didn't get to school until close to 8:25 or something, i dont really remember, but i got there really late. Which sucks for one major reason:( but nothing i can do much now..
today still dragged by, even tho we did have a delay. School is really stessful latley, tons of homework and no time to do it. I didnt end up starting my homework until 9 or something last night, and i had hours to do. Not smart. My history paper is due the 9th and out rough draft is due Thursday. I havent even started writing it yet. Again, Not smart.
Sunday is the Rochester parade:-D If I go, Shea said he'd come with me since we never really hang out too much anymore. I love that kid, hes like a brother to me. You're the best Shea!
I feel like I had something to do tonight, but i don't. Not that I can remember anyway. Weird. Speaking of weird, im having the weirdest feelings. I'm not going to get into it, but you'll all know eventually if things go right. Kelley knows, mm hmm. really weird feelings.
so, 2morrow i'm getting to school early, so I have time to stop and talk to people. I'm gonna go get my homework started so i can go to bed at a decent time tonight. Leave me some comments people;)
Mood: Contemplative
Music: Guster - Careful (best song!)
Posted at 4:51:21 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Monday, December 01, 2003
bass guitar and shag CD, well they dont mean that much to me right now
^^ that ones for you Jaye!
school today was long and boring. Everyone around me is sick, and now I dont feel good at all. My stomache hurts and my kidneys are throbbing. I dont need another kidney infection, its the worst. I have a massive headache and thinking about certain events that happened tonight and today arent helping, im sure. Too much has gone in to thinking about this.. way too much thought. We'll see how tomorrow goes, if i go through with my plans:-/ If i was only certain about it, I wouldnt be so worried about it.
Mood: Sick :(
Music: Josh Kelley - everybody wants you
Posted at 5:47:55 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Sunday, November 30, 2003
you can spin my motivation like a record off the wall
alright.. well last night i slept over Jackie's. We hung out. I feel asleep early. I didn't really sleep that well either. I woke up at 10 and we went out on the trails on the 4-wheelers by 10:45 - 11ish. We were gone for awhile, too. We did get stuck, and Jackie dropped me in the mud, but it was loads of fun anyway. We didnt get back until 2? idk really. We warmed up since we were all cold and freezing than me and jackie went back out to the powerlines for a lil bit. We got clod and went back in for maybe a half an hour. We went back out w/ Cass and i put double layers on to stay warm and we were out there forever. So much fun:)
i just got home.. not too much has gone on of too much importance. I don't want to go to school 2morrow. Bri isn't answering my IMs. the Guster CD i burnt consists of guys "meowing" and it pisses me off. I'm gonna buy it anyway, but i want to listen to it now w/o having to listen to selected songs on the guster website. oh well..
i <3 snapple apple
Mood: Tired :[
Music: Howie Day - Kristina
Posted at 7:54:30 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Saturday, November 29, 2003
im drowned and drunk in you, no one has ever looked at me like you, before you did
this entrys prolly gonna be short cuz not a whole lot has happened since last night, but one MAJOR important event happened.. so thats basically the only reason im updating.
well i was kinda searching the web looking for tour dates for either Josh Kelley or Gavin DeGraw. I came upon a website for a Maine newspaper and it had a list of concerts in the NH, ME, MA area for the month of december. So i'm kinda strolling along, skimming through the dates. I came upton the Dec. 16 concert in Boston i wanted to go to w/ howie, guster, and gavin degraw and i knew i couldnt go, unfortunatly. So I keep reading. Then, i came upon a concert in Portland, ME, the 19th and 20th, with Howie and Guster. That def. just made my night. $20 a ticket and its General Admission, so if we get there early enough we could get REALLY good spots. Guster's taping a DVD, thats why its 2 nights. I'll go one of the nights, anyway. I'm def. excited, and its on a Friday/Saturday night which is even better.
well thats pretty much all.. i went shopping today for x-mas.. got my family pretty much done. I dont have a whole lot of money left.. i just wont eat lunch in school, or ill bring my own lunch, to save my money. I got Jaye her present today, too;)
Mood: Excited :-D
Music: Guster - Amsterdam
Posted at 1:51:51 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Friday, November 28, 2003
did you lose your place? did you lose your grace? just so everyone could see your sweet face
im okay.. really I am. I'm having a whirlwind of emotions hitting me all at once and its tough to deal, but im not gonna vent anymore. screw it. and im not gonna hold anything back anymore, thats gotten me into some trouble. I hate holding things in, and, well, if being more honest with people turns out to be an even worse thing, then they're not my friends. I know who my true friends are and they know i love them. so to everyone else, fuck you :-D
today i layed around, in my bed, and just hung out. I tried not to listen to too much Howie cuz its kinda depressing me. but its alright, ill get over it. It makes me happy, too. Music and Friends are the only things that actually make me happy. "one good thing about music is when it hits you you feel no pain" wise man in the o.a.r. song is wise indeed.
Josh Kelley + Gavin DeGraw are amazing. I love them, too. It sucks that Foxboro prolly isn't going to happen the 16th, so no Howie or Gavin, but they'll be more opprotunities. I know it, i have a good feeling about it. Next September may seem far away now, but the time will come and the wait will be well worth it. By the way, if you wanna go, let me know;)
well thats about it, im tired and im prolly gonna go to bed. yah at 8:00 on a Friday night. Its the way to go.. let me tell you;) night everyone.. and thanks to everyone who tried to cheer me up today :-* ilu guys times a billion.
Mood: Okay :)
Music: Josh Kelley - Follow You
Posted at 11:52:14 am by x1K5E0G4o
Thursday, November 27, 2003
at the end of our days, we'll escape
Happy Turkey Day every one:-D
i just want to start out by saying.. i love my friends. And i want to say sorry to everyone, Shea in praticular, cuz I've been acting really bitchy latley. It's not you guys, at all, its more like family life and being so stressed out and what-not. The usual type of thing. And I'm sorry if I snapped at you on Monday, i've grown to be more independant since i'm always by myself all the time and i dont like it when people see me upset, and when they do I dont want them to pity me. I really couldn't stand it when everyone kept asking me if I was okay or what was wrong constantly throughout the day. When i tell you once i dont want to have to tell you again. I tried getting my mind off things and tried to cheer up, but once I did someone would come along and remind me of it. It wasn't my day. It hasnt been my week, more likley. Shea, you know i love you, and im sorry. I just felt like we were falling apart, and by trying to regain our friendship i made things worse, typical of me, right? I love you guys, each and every one of you, and never forget that!
today we had to go down to mass to visit family and what-not. NOT my idea of a fun time. Typical me playing video games w/ my bros staying away from everyone kind of day. And thats exactly what i did. I really don't like a lot of my family, and i try to stay as far away from them as possiable. Its hard when the closest person to your age there is your 20 year old brother. Food wasn't all that great.. i hate turkey day:(
so i pretty much have no plans going on for the rest of the week. Might be hanging out with Jackie 2morrow night if her family isnt coming up. We'll see how that goes. I need to go X-mas shopping.. who wants to take me?
well thats pretty much it.. oh and Dan do you have my money from dinner the other night? ;)
im gonna go eat now since i didnt eat much today. xox :-*
Posted at 7:41:10 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
chalk it up to being young, prove it was me
i've liked being away for the past few days.. i enjoyed it. I liked just sitting around by myslef, not giving a shit, shopping, listening to Howie. Listening to it doesnt upset me much anymore, just that one night. I'm over it though, no i'll prolly never get the chance to meet him, which i would love like you have no idea, but i can go see him live. I've been telling everyone about him, and everyone seems to like his music too. Hes really talented, and beautiful.. his eyes;) haha Krista..
i went shopping.. i love shopping.. ALL day today. bought some clothes, did a little christmas shopping.. you know the deal;) got the "stop all the world now" dvd from howie.. of course.
theres things i wish i could say to people's face.. but i can't. I'm not that big of a bitch.. although they can be..
Posted at 4:08:48 pm by x1K5E0G4o
Monday, November 24, 2003
shattered and torn.... my dreams that is
omg.. this is the WORST day of my entire life. I have the oppritunity to meet Howie Day, everyone who knows me knows im upsessed with this guy, but i can't. It's in Portland, and hour away, heaven forbid. My parents are way too over protected cuz im the only girl of the family and it drives me crazy. I got my hopes up, yet my dreams are thrown to pieces right before im supposed to go. I cried this morning cuz my dad was being an asshole about it and i was in the worst mood all day. I snapped at everyone this morning, i really didnt want to talk about it and it really bugged me when everyon kept asking me all day if i was okay or what was wrong when i wasnt okay and i didnt want to talk about what was wrong. I wanted to be left alone, yet no one would let me be. Ally pulled me aside this morning amist my crying and talked to me about it. That kind of make me feel better, shes a sweatheart. I really wanted to go, i love Howie like no one believes, so i was like fuck it im going anyway. Just kidding.... Bri had to get work off and she wasnt sure if she was gonna be able to and Tod had her mom's car cuz his was in the shop or something. So there goes our means of transportation. And along with it go my hopes and dreams. No body understands how much meeting him would have meant to me, and now I may never have the chance again. Yah, ill be able to go see him in concert or whatever, but actually meeting him is such a big difference. I love this boy..
so i have a dr.s aptmt.. and im gonna come home and listen to my CDs for the rest of the night.. thats as close as I can get to actually being there. At 6:00, when Howie's supposed to start up in Portland, will some one come do me a favor and shoot me in the head? I don't want to have to walk into school 2morrow.. broken. Yah, maybe you think im over reacting, but im not. you could even begin to understand.
Posted at 3:42:14 pm by x1K5E0G4o
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