i know you want my love, i dont think the time is right, ill call you when im ready but it wont be tonight.
wow, i never knew i could feel like this. It's hard when you know you obviously cant have him. It's a really complicated thing. I mean, i didnt really like him yesterday, i thought he was sweet and an awesome kid, but when i got home all I could think about was him. It's all I've thought about all night long. I know that nothing will ever happen and i shouldnt bother, but its hard when you find this amazing, perfect guy. why do i bother. You always want the ones you can't have..
I really wanted to get out of here last night, go out and get my mind off things, but no one was around. Bri invited me to Vibe with her, Courtney, and Dan, but loud music and dancing really wasnt what I was in the mood for. I went last week with Bri and Jackie only cuz Bri wanted me to go, and i hated it. I felt bad cuz i didnt want to dance but i wasn't gonna sit by myself. I think i ruined the night for atleast Bri. It wasnt my night.
I'm glad me and Jackie are cool now. I missed her so much. She really is one of my best friends and i would have died if we hadnt started talking again. i love her, shes like a sister to me.
but yah, enough of me complaining. I think i'm going out job hunting today.. we'll see. I have a big report/project due 2morrow that i havent even started :x oops..
Posted at 9:46:46 am by x1K5E0G4o
well, here it is. since my deadjournal is currently under some reconstructing, ill be using this. I know, its not the same, but it's better than nothing.
i've been very confused latley, not about anything in particualar, but about what I say and do and everything else thats going on around me. Today kinda took my mind off of things though, directed my attention towards other things. For FLBA we hiked Loon Mountain, Jason def. kicked all of the Spaulding kids asses and was the 4th at the top out of everyone. Tim and I were only 5 minutes behind him and nobody was in front of out. We didn't stop once. It was definatly quite a hike, alot of steep hills, but it only took us 35-40 minutes. Its a good work out. Sami and Heather took the gondolas to the top and we met them up there. We sprinted up the 3 flights of stairs to the top of the tower and looked at the view, it was really amazing. It was also really cold so we ran back down. The 5 of us couldnt all fit in a gondola to go back down so me and Tim went by ourselves. He's a really sweet kid, im glad i met him. We waited in the lodge area for the pizza for a good hour and a half, and to top it off it was really disgusting. So once everyone was done eating and had made it down we left. We went to Tilton, to the factory outlets. We walked around, went into Gap, Rue 21, Ralph Lauren, and somewhere else, i cant remember, but Tim almost bought shoes there. We went into the Chocolate Factory last, and everyone got caramel apples. I couldnt finish all mine it was waaay to big! We ate sugar and candy all the way home. Small space, but good kids and good times. I'm so glad i went today, even if i couldnt think of a work that started with a K. lol. so Monday, got a meeting for the bulliten board and gotta brianstorm ideas for the October social. kids are awesome, day was awesome:)
im not looking forward to school on monday. im doing horriable and dont understand much. and i have a report/presentation due that i havent even started yet. oops..
no football game for me friday.. we have an away game in Salem. ouch. Soccers over the 23rd tho.
boys with mohawks.. ow ow! lol very entertaining:-P glad everyone beat Dover!!
well im tired and sore and the sox are on in 10.. gonna go make some popcorn and curl up on the couch:)
Posted at 6:31:23 pm by x1K5E0G4o
